Will Pay for Energy

Wow I forgot just how exhausting it is to be pregnant.  I am so tired constantly.  I wish I could just buy some Energy or borrow some of my kids.  Yeah I know there is Energy drinks out there but not a good choice being pregnant.  Oh how I wish I could plug myself into a wall or had a place to put in batteries.  Then I might feel better.  Oh well I guess I just struggle with guilt of feeling lazy because I am not as productive as I would like to be.  Yes I know I am pregnant and being tired is normal but I also am a wife and mom who just wants to do normal things I have been able to do before.

Memory Loss

Hahaha I just finished my last post saw I had a draft. I have no idea what i was going to say then but the title says it all

I asked for it

Ok so I got to really learn that God means it when he said if you ask in righteousness you shall receive.  I was not really feeling pregnant. Mostly because I am not that far along and because I am over weight so I worried a lot.  So once I found out I prayed and asked that I might know everything is ok and I am truly pregnant.  Well my prayers were answered so I should be grateful.  But I was given bad morning sickness and extreme fatigue and moodiness.  Although these are not fun things to go through I am thankful that they are signs of a healthy pregnancy.  I know I will be more at peace come the 24th when I have my first appointment that is just a week from Tuesday.  I just need to remember even though it may not be the way we expect God will always answer our prayers. We just have to be willing to accept the answer.

Food Cravings and Morning Sickness

So lately I have been having a weird schedule for morning sickness.  I guess it is more anytime sickness.  The weird thing is it also goes in hand with my cravings. I will have a strong craving weather it be for cereal, salad, hamburger, whatever.  It will be something I want I can not think of anything else I will get it take one maybe two bites it will be the best thing ever than come bite 3 it now becomes the worst thing I can have in front of me.  And my poor husband every time he wants something it sounds absolutely disgusting to me but as soon as he has it or it is made and I have a taste it is the best thing ever.  But I still have times where no food seems good at all and any food come near by even just the smell is going to make me ill.

You say hey you have had 2 kids before you should know what its like.  Well with my last 2 pregnancies I did not have to much problem with food. With Josh I could not eat carrots but that was it.  And with Jorja well I could eat pretty much anything and had no specific cravings.

This one has been so weird for me.  It has fit every stereotype of a pregnant woman.  This is so weird to feel sick. To feel sore.  To be completely  exhausted.  As I have put it I feel like I have the Flu just without the fever and the chills.  I am excited thou I am looking forward for #3 this will be our last but I am so excited for it all. Even if I have to be a typical pregnant woman

Hormones

        Let me tell you something about a pregnant woman's hormones.  Now this is not scientific but is something  from my point of view.  All women will not fall into this but from my experience many do.  There is no logic or reason to my emotions anymore.  There are things that are going to make me mad that other times will make me cry or laugh.  What you think my reaction will be from past experience will not be the case.  You see me burst into tears because water is taking to long to boil so the next time you think I will react the same way.  That is logical deduction.  Not so. This time I boil water and get mad because it is boiling to fast. Or am quite content and happy because I think it is all going perfect.

My reality is that I am growing another living human being inside me.  This changes the body.  This does things to my hormone levels.  You think PMS is bad well I am going to be 10 times worse.  I will have mood swings and I do not like them just as much as you don't like them.  There will be times I will want comfort and then there will be times comfort will be the worst thing that can happen.  When should you comfort me? That is a good question.  I don't even know half the time.

And don't let me watch the news.  I will end up crying by the end or getting so upset about life that I will go off on a tangent and you will not get me down.  And any pregnancy show will make me question and wonder if the same thing is happening to me.  If the woman on tv has a still birth or any complications I will be depressed and worried about it until I find some way to make my mind at ease.  I may not be rational now.  But believe me what ever I say its best to agree.  At least for 9 months.